What If...

What if the sky was green and the grass was blue?

Yes I'm blogging instead of finishing my project (that I forgot about and have spent too many hours today working on it) but I thought I deserved a break. I'm normally not up this late doing anything that involves using my brain. See, I'm practically a grandma (ask Ansley) and I like to go to bed between 10 and 10:30.

Anyway, back to my point. "What if" is just a phrase that should be erased from my vocabulary today. I have thought way too many times about those words. What if I would have done things differently freshman year, what if I was dating this one person from my past, what if I make the wrong decision about what I want to do with the rest of my life.

Today has been a strange day, I guess you could phrase it that way. Throughout the day there were little reminders of things that have happened to me. My iPod knew to add to this confusion by playing songs that reminded me of people or songs that dealt with my current feelings towards life. For instance Sara and I were just sitting in the grass before I had to go to work listening to music and "Should I Stay or Should I Go" starts playing. Yes, this was comical to us because that is what has been on my mind for days. Do I want to graduate in December or May. Its not that I'm afraid of growing up or entering the real world its about if I want to complete an internship class or not. Its not that tough of a decision because either way I see myself being happy I just don't want another "what if" to add to my collection.

It was brought to my attention today that I used the word "things" to describe my mood today. "Things" and worries  keep coming up that I shouldn't be thinking about. Why am I letting "things" get in the way of my life. That's just crazy. (See I know this, so why is it all I have been thinking about today?)

This post has turned into one big complaint but from it comes my final point which is what I want to leave you with...

A good friend drew my attention to a certain Bible Verse this afternoon Philippians 4:4-8. Read it, seriously. It puts all things in perspective.